living

the girl with the most cake

I LOVE LOVE LOVE HOLE! COURTNEY LOVE!

In the last year and a half I have spent too much time wondering/obsessing over where/how/why my ex-husband split in the middle of the night and left me with a lot of shit to deal with, 2 confused pissed off teenagers, and a shattered ego.  Yesterday morning after work I was having a “can’t sleep wildly obsessing” session I got a message from a friend.

“I’m glad he’s gone, I didn’t like him.  He had hair like a baby chimpanzee.  There, it’s out. I said it.  Thank God you didn’t have a kid with that monchichi. gross.”

She pulled me out of the rabbit hole just like that.  She continues with “How’s work?  Is ICU blah? All stabbings, gerbils in not so pretty places and old people shit?”  This girl is Hilarious, to me anyway, going on and on…then she just says, “like always, you pull through.”

Snap! I do and I did.  I had a huge moment of clarity.  Most important being that my ex was an asshole and nobody liked him.   People always made comments, he hated all of my friends, etc, but I guess my perspective was so twisted up I made excuses for him.   He’s gone and that’s my gain, in every way possible.   All he wanted as to be the “man” in his “industry.”  He uses people to his advantage, always would find new hobbies too impress/gain friendships.  All of this has to do with his daddy issues and he calls his mom “Mother.” OK, Norman Bates.  I’m done wasting my time obsessing with that person.

I have other rabbit holes and obsessions like music, seeing Montage of Heck, finding tickets to the sold out Peter Hook show, raising 2 teenagers, get more letters after my name besides RN, CCRN….i need more, because the powers that be are lame.  I have to join the “groove cruise” with girlfriends, I have dates to go on,  music blogs to read,  and regular life crap to do.  Bald Move, Mad Men, Penny Dreadful, Game of Thrones, and driving all over Texas to see Courtney Love. (I met her during the Live Through This tour and she was so nice and down to earth.) People give her too much shit.

thanks to my grrrlfriend and this..

 

YOU KEEP YOUR HOOCHIE..

i dropped my coffee”
Trust T. coffee isn’t as heavy and I don’t have to give it up.
i thank the old god and the new..the lord of light(eh)…and the Viper, may he RIP.

You’re a car girl, you’re a star girl, you are at the door
The tide will turn, ….You even yidiedididi..aww to bad that weight=cement shoes,
CUZ There’s a window.
(T)Starling, now I am shut out and confined it may be your turn to shine
hey what’s that you say “You can find him online most of the time these days”
“Is that right?” (T)
hope that diamond is sharper that that DULL TOOL…